One thing I know for sure is when I’m consciously creating my life, my relationships and my career, I get results.

So why am I not always doing that, and what am I doing instead? The truth is, I’m probably defaulting to the bad place. As much I want to hide the truth from you…I won’t, because BANT (Bare Ass Naked Truth), while typically uncomfortable, is damn near always full of opportunities for awareness and breakthroughs. And that’s what I signed up for.

Now back to default. We all have it, and for most of us it’s usually not pretty. Typically stewed in self-doubt, our default presents in many forms. For me, it was all about judging and no one was off limits, especially moi. I’ve judged myself for working too much, and then again for taking time off. I judged myself for ending my marriage, as well as for staying in it too long. I judged myself for judging myself. I even caught myself realizing this silly loop, having a good laugh and then jokingly thinking, “Look at you, judging yourself for judging yourself…dumbass.” Damn, I did it again! That’s 3 layers deep. Often cloaked in humor and seemingly harmless self-deprecation, my default was sneakier than I thought.

I decided I was in need of a little tune up. I could see that when I wasn’t intentionally holding the steering wheel (in my life), I had an automatic pull toward self-doubt. It was like my alignment was off and I was inadvertently veering in a direction I didn’t really want to go. For me, a tune up came in the form of hypnosis. It was the perfect way for me to get back on track. Whether we are looking to sharpen our awareness, shift our default or dump a bad habit, it all comes down to CHANGING YOUR MIND, and what better way than from the inside out?

I’m pretty sure I’ll still visit the bad place from time to time. In fact, I caught myself judging this post more than once. Judging was a part of what I did for so long, however, now I can catch it sooner and come back quicker.

I want to hear your story. Leave your comment below or contact me @ elainamcmillan@yahoo.com.